Dear Diary #1: Will He Ever Love Me Again?

Dear Diary,

I've messed up.  I've hurt him deeply.  I created this evil image of him to cope with my own pain.  I didn't care how my actions would affect him.  I've used unimaginable tactics as methods of control.

I never expected a friendship to form out of the ruins.

I never expected the phoenix's ashes to regenerate into magnificence.

And I've allowed myself to fall in love again. 

I didn't mean for it to happen, but it has.  It's intense and fierce.

Too bad the contents of my heart are invisible to him.  He's still bearing the scars of our past.

I pray for the day he turns to me and says, "Yes, I love you too," but so far I'm sending out empty prayers.

I wonder if he will ever love me again?  Is it worth the wait to find out, or should I just accept the facts and get over him?

Thomasina