Target Tuesday #2

It's Tuesday, and ya know what that means...

Target Tuesday with Tara! 

So here is my list for the week. 

And don't forget to check out Tara's blog to see who else has linked up this week.





#1.) Classic Home Pinch Pleat Faux Silk Panel Collection - Rocky River
{love the color}

#2.) DwellStudio® for Target® Foliage Comforter Set
{reminds of spring and fresh air}

#3.) 21 , Adele

{love her voice}

#4.) Uplight Lamp with Crackle Glass Shade
 {i love lamps}

#5.) JK Jemma Kidd Strike A Pose Swivel Palette
 {like i need more eyeshadow}

#6) Amazon Kindle Wireless Reading Device with 6" Display and Free 3G + Wi-Fi (Latest Generation){should have bought this when i had the chance, maybe next time}

#7.) Xhilaration® Zebra Shag Rug - Black/White
{i really, really want this rug seeing that it matches the black and white theme of my bedroom}

  

#8.) Stick Leaf Carolina Fleece Rug Collection - Beige
{would save this rug for the fall}

Can you believe i don't have any clothing items on this week's list?!

Stay Sweet!
T.  

Grammy

On Friday I woke up with a little tickle in my throat, and by nighttime that tickle turned into a full blown cough. Yep, I caught a cold. So my weekend consisted of sleeping, and then waking up to take cough/sinus meds. I still have the cough this morning, but it's nothing like it was a few days ago.

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Yesterday marked the five year anniversary of my Grammy's death, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her. Typically this day is very hard for me and for the rest of my family, but this year was different. My family and I had a big dinner, and we laughed and celebrated life! My Grammy would have wanted us to be happy on this day, seeing this is the day she went to heaven. That's something to smile about.

My Grammy was the type of woman who lived what she preached. She loved Jesus with her entire being. She was the model example of what it means to live a Christian life. My Grammy's strongest attribute was her prayer life. She would spend hours making requests to God on behalf of other people! As a child, I remember hearing the passion in Grammy's voice as she talked to God. She was honest with God, and she went to Him boldly. This is the type of prayer life I long for!

I miss my Grammy a lot, and there are many days I wish I could go to her for advice. But one thing I learned from my Grammy is that I can go directly to God. I can tell Him how I'm feeling and what's concerning me.

I just need to work on making time for God, instead of squeezing Him in when it's convenient! This has really been a challenge for me. It seems there just aren't enough hours in the day.

How do you find time to spend quality time with God?

{By the way, if you read my blog regularly please make sure you're a follower!}

Stay Sweet and Have a Great Week!

T.

This is me today



and here's another one

Nothing special about these photos right?

No makeup, pretty clothes, dangling earrings, or fancy styled hair.

So why did I post these pics?

Because when I look this

all natural

 I feel...

 S E X Y!

I'm in my own zone, and when I'm in this place I'm fearless.

I'm confident

and

I'm oh so comfortable!

I love hoodies and yoga pants.

So as you enjoy this weekend remember to do something that makes you feel and look sexy!

Stay Sweet!

T.

Music to My Ears

In a previous post, I mentioned that I had some new tunes.  I love music, what it represents, and how it makes me feel.  The reality of a complete stranger, from a seemly different world, relating to my unique experiences.  Oh, the joy that music brings. 

So, here’s what I’ve been listening to…

1.) Kandi Koated, Kandi Burruss.  Kandi is one of the Real Housewives of Atlanta, and she’s about as real as they come.  This album is one of my favorites because there are a variety of songs that range from heartache, to cheating, to being a single mother in search of love.  If you check out her website, here’s a hint: scroll to the bottom of the page and pause the Google Ads.

2.) Mission Bell, Amos Lee.  This album is sweet and mellow, with strong, powerful lyrics.  I stumbled upon Amos Lee while listening to music on Pandora, and after hearing one song I was completely hooked!



3.) Kaleidoscope Heart , Sara Bareilles.  Kaledoscope Heart sums up the entire album. 

4.) Hundred More Years, Francesca Battistelli.  This album reminds me that there is nothing that can ever separate me from the love of God.

5.) God Willin' & The Creek Don't Rise, Ray Lamontagne.  Soulful and sultry.  Anyone who is familiar with Ray Lamontagne understands the aesthetics of his music.

6.) Move, Third Day.  Wonderful praise and worship music.

7.) Pink Friday, Nicki Minaj.  My very favorite album!! I'm a HUGE Nicki fan, and I love the album's mix of rap and R & B.

8.) Tonight, Toby Mac.  I bought this album thinking it would be awesome, but unfortunately I'm not all that impressed.  There are literally only 2 out 14 songs that I like.  I didn't realize the songs would be mostly hard rock.  Oh well.

So that completes my music list.  What have you been listening to?

T.  





 



Target Tuesday Link Up

Today I am following in the footsteps of a lovely blogger named Tara, who is the author of Fabulous but Evil.  Each Tuesday, Tara features what things she wants from Target.  Now we all know Target is my happy place, so when Tara offered her followers the chance to link up and follow suit you know I had to jump on board!  So without further ado, here is my very own Target Tuesday.

Merona® Women's Sleeveless Dress w/Drape 

Merona® Women's Sleeveless Dress w/Drape - Vintage Khaki 

Mossimo Brown Crossbody

{I actually bought this bag and I love it!}

Zebra Shower Curtain

Medallion 16-pc. Dinnerware Set

@tract Floral Stretch Bracelet - Goldtone

Women's Mossimo Supply Co. Odell Ruffle Ballet Flats - Blush Patent

So this completes my very first Target Tuesday.  Make sure you check out Tara's blog, as well as the other bloggers who linked up to Target Tuesday.

T.

A Classic Case of the What-If’s

On Saturday night I was doing the usual, you know homework and checking Facebook. From time to time, I check out the selections Facebook offers on the people I may know, so on Saturday I decided to give it a look.

Oh boy, why didn't I just stick to the homework?!

There it was, in plain sight-my ex's profile picture; him and a girl.

For some unknown reason I just sat there, with my mouth hanging open, staring at the picture. And then it started happening, the classic case of the what-if's. What if this was his girlfriend? What if he lied to me and was seeing us both at the same time? What if he dumped me for her? What if he thinks she's prettier than me {clearly this is not even close to being true-I'm just sayin' J}? What if he lied about his job? These stupid questions kept coming to mind, and they plagued me for most of the night. So much so that I started to call him up and scream at him!

I wanted answers to my questions, and damn it I deserved to know the truth! All my logic was pushed aside. I was pissed off, and I needed to know who this chic was and if she was with my boyfriend ex. Luckily, logic alone wasn't enough for me to go off. I needed reinforcement. So I called one of my good friends.

And thank God for good friends who are there for you during your craziest moments. My friend understood how much seeing the picture hurt me. She understood why I was upset. She understood why I felt I deserved answered.

She understood why I needed to leave the situation as is; finished.

After I talked to my friend, I felt better and the what-if's ceased. They haven't come back and I'm glad. As my friend pointed out, calling him would have changed nothing about the situation. His mind is already made up. And so is mine. I need to move on because he apparently has. And if this chic isn't his girlfriend, it still won't change the situation.

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I discovered this today, on Facebook {I know, I'm an addict}, and this makes me happy.
Stay Sweet!
T.

Easy Difficulties

On most days I can function as a normal human being. I can wake up on time, find matching socks, get Nehemiah up and ready for school, and then get myself dressed. On these days I may even throw on some makeup. I can face the world with confidence.

And then there are days like yesterday.

Nehemiah accidentally fell on top of my laptop and cracked the screen in two corners. It was clearly an accident, and I'm to blame as well seeing I don't store the laptop in a safe place. Lesson learned. However, Nehemiah's behavior was challenging so my patience with him wore very thin. Now whenever Miah has an off day and it starts making me come undone, I become overly critical of myself.

Nehemiah has a bad day equals Thomasina is a bad mommy.

I know this isn't an accurate representation of my parenting, but this is what comes to mind whenever we have a bad day.
Once I got Nehemiah down for bed, I decided to start studying. However, something was wrong.

I started crying.

Everything hit me all at once; single parenting, school, Fibromyalgia, seizures, anxiety, depression. I couldn't seem to stop the tears, they just kept flowing. And then I realized something.

I was also crying about the break up.

Although I still find myself thinking about him, I haven't actually cried in a long time. In fact I thought I was over it. But as the tears kept coming I was forced into being completely honest with myself, and it was time for me to answer a lingering question.

Was I really in love with him as much as I thought I was, or was I in love with the idea that I finally found my soul mate?

Ouch.

I concluded that it was a little bit of both. Yes I did love him, a lot. But I also loved that I didn't have to worry about dating and being alone. I'm not one of those girls who have to have a boyfriend, but it's nice to be wanted. And to know someone is thinking about you. And that someone loves you in that special way. And I don't doubt that he loved me as much as he said he did.

But then again he did dump me.

And I wasn't allowed a say in the matter.

And we haven't talked since.

So as I dried my tears, I decided the break up was no longer worthy of my tears and anguish.

The relationship is over.

The friendship is over.

But my spirit doesn't have to be broken. I'm way too strong for that.

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I woke up this morning to the sun shining bright, and to Nehemiah's smiling face.

He was happy.

I was happy.

And I decided there is enough love in my life to sustain me until my happily ever after is written.

 

Have a wonderful weekend!
T.